The warmer days of summer are fewer and farther between as we've hit mid September and it's starting to feel like "pumpkin weather" (time for Halloween). Last night I bundled up in front of a french film with Joanna and Jeremy with some milk, cookies and red wine. I of course fell asleep because I made myself too comfortable and missed part of the movie.

I made myself some orange spice tea and burnt my tongue trying to drink it just now. that was really unpleasant.

this morning i went to work at 8:30 as usual. once yohann's parents left we were bouncing on big ball listening to soft music and he fell asleep in my arms. he slept for 2 hrs so I sat around and read the newspaper. I really like his parents and love doing a good job for them so I prefer when he's awake the whole time I'm with him so that he'll sleep when his parents get him back so they'll have more time to get things done.

speaking of getting things done. i need to go get some things done.

i think im dying. and i'm leaving for NC tomorrow morning bright and early. woooeee

Last night was TERRRRRRIBLE!!! Oh man... it started out alright though. Here's how the night went down.

I showered and got ready pretty quick but it was taking a while for Maiyan to get going. It was getting late so we decided that while she showered I would go and pick up Leah to save time. Once Leah, Jenna, Maiyan and I were all ready we started off by having a few beers up in her room. Maiyan decided to buy Canadian beer... which I find truly disgusting. We finally left the house and stopped at Timmy Ho's to buy some coke to mix with our rum. We drank and had a dance party on the subway with Maiyan's iPod. By the time we got down to the beaches I was pretty tipsy and feeling good. We went to this guy Nate's house where he was drinking and having a bbq with 5 or 6 of his guy friends for his birthday. This was went I first met Benji.... who is Maiyan's ex boyfriend.... but really whenever they're together they're basically going out again. He'll come up and kiss her and act like this whole year apart didn't skip a beat in their relationship. My first impression of him was that he was a rude, chauvanistic fuckface who thinks he's the hottest thing this side of the Mississipi.... no make that the hottest thing on this continent. Right at the table I was getting upset because he didn't wait even 5 minutes to start making fun of me for being American and calling me a "Yankee". Because he was doing this it made me drink harder and faster which made me even drunker and more vulnerable to get upset more. We left this guys house and walked to a nearby bar. The night only got worse, I spent the majority of it crying my eyes out and drinking just because these guys are such dicks. FINALLY we decide to leave, THANK GOD, and Maiyan decides she's going to stay in the Beaches with Benji.... wtf? My nose starts bleeding and all I can think about is how I want to be either back in BC with Ross or back home. I'm staying at her house, don't want anything to do with Benji and she leaves me no choice but go back to her house alone. I take a taxi with Jenna and Leah and once we're in the taxi and it's been going for a while they tell me that they don't have money so I end up paying for it on my card. LAME. Jenna and Leah were really great throughout the whole night because they kept making sure I was okay so whatever, I'm not too upset about picking up the bill. Leah stayed the night at Maiyan's with me and it was just really weird... I would never do that to any of my friends that are guests at my house. Maybe she hasn't heard of Chicks b.f Dicks and I wouldn't say that alcohol is any kind of an excuse.

She didn't come back until about 12 today and when she got back she acted like nothing had happened and told me she was super drunk and didn't remember anything...... so I talked to my Mom and wanted to change my flight and go home right away... but it would cost too much to do that so I might stay with the Castillo's in Buffalo for a few nights. We've just been lounging around her house today and I'm not sure what she has planned for tonight. Things are going better now that we're sober.

It's funny because I never really let her know how upset I was... I just told her that I hated/hate Benji and that I had a horrible time last night. Luckily I talked to Ross on the phone last night and I miss him so much it was nice to talk to him even though I was drunk and don't remember much of it. I woke up this morning and there was a text from him on my phone that said "Goodnight babe, i love u" Which just made me feel really good even though I was hungover and still upset about the night before.

I'm excited for America's Next Top Model tonight and I'm looking into buying a pair of rollerblades! Wahoooo.

Due to mainly how ridiculous I am, this journal is now officially for friends only, but if you'd like to read about my bizarre dreams and the crazy things going on in my head all day long, feel free to ask to be added.

:) Thanks! :)